Me & my twin sister's 39th birthday is coming up on the 25th. As MUCH as I used to LOVE birthdays, even with getting excited about other people's birthdays, I'm not too much looking forward this year. I may even have to be forced to sleep homeless on the streets on that day. Both the night before & the night of.
With me being a TI, the narcissistic gang stalkers try to FORCE me to hate things that I loved all my life. Due to this gang stalking, I'm no longer interested in a Spanish career or Hispanic people, the way I used to be. I gave up on striving for a Spanish translation/interpreting career. That's what they wanted. & they got their wish! If they didn't systematically & strategically sabotage me, I could've excelled in that field.
They're trying to get me to give up on enjoying to drive. I love driving, but they try to force me to hate it by shooting down my confidence. As much as I love driving vehicles & swimming, due to this program, I'm forced to be scared of swimming & driving, & have performance anxiety. Just like with my writing. They're trying to FORCE me to give up writing & trying to live & survive.
The past few birthdays have been SUCH a disaster that I'm just not looking forward to it. Bad enough, my abusive narcissistic perp twin sister ignores me ritualistically EVERY year for our birthday, or she would wait until late July or anywhere in August to pick an argument with me for an excuse to justify being fake mad at me & not talking to me. We could be getting along nearly PERFECT in April, May, June & possibly part or all of July. August comes, & it's the BIGGEST falling out. To the point where I end up with panic attacks & having to call the crisis hotline. & then they treat me like an unwanted pest, who's unwelcome to call. The fake mental health people used to threaten to have me locked up in the mental institution as a birthday punishment. My twin sister, herself, has even made such threats, especially in 2013. She would ghost me around our birthday. & then she would be perping me with Aaliyah.
Aaliyah died in a plane crash on our 18th birthday. Some people recently started saying that the plane crash was a fake psyop, & that Aaliyah is a male to female transgender who's secretly still alive & playing a role as Natalie LaRose. I heard the same thing about Left Eye from TLC playing the role of Pink Biitch or something like that. I got backlash for exposing Aaliyah & sicko R. Kelly's secret daughter Angel Nicole Kelly Haughton. She's SO evil, abusive & disrespectful! I no longer like Aaliyah's brother Rashad Haughton, the cousins Morgan Hankerson, Blair Hankerson & Mintis (named after the grandma) Hankerson. They were also rude. Rashad is a narcissistic abuser who used to run a fake RAD6 Twitter cult "Art Eternal".
If I would've known Aaliyah personally, the narcissistic gang stalking network would've brainwashed her to hate me, too. & they would've turned her from my favorite to my worst enemy. They probably would've had Aaliyah to be the main one to set me up to be locked up & put away in prison for LIFE! But anyway, I'm glad I see the truth & the light & don't idolize these fake, retarded celebrities anymore. I'm glad I found Jesus Christ. I didn't know any better back then. They're not worth me going to hell for, especially if they didn't care about me.
The mentally slow, crazy biological family secretly used to celebrate our birthday with my twin sister, & without me, ON the 25th. They would lie & say that our birthday is the 24th, & not the 25th. Yet, I wouldn't hear from them at all. They're mentally off, slow, retarded, ignorant, ghetto & reprobate.
The fake foster mom would lie to people, saying that our birthday is August 26th. The bitch even had it on our school records. She would always threaten to knock my teeth out if I ever got excited about me & my twin sister's birthday or get excited about other people's birthdays. She's the reason why it's hard for me to have a positive outlook on life. She shaped me to be this way, yet she always narcissistically bullied, harassed & lectured me about whining & complaining so much. She always threatened to knock my teeth out, for anything positive, happy or good that I talked about. She's the reason why I suffer anxiety disorders & OCD because I was never perfect enough for her standards.
I'm forced to experience birthday alone. If a narcissistic abuser found out that I bought a small dollar cupcake & $1 Haagen Dasz (How to spell it?) ice cream, he or she would berate or condemn me for "wasting" too much money on junk food & being "greedy". They would say that birthday is no excuse. But when theirs come, they get a LAVISH vacation, expensive cruise & party. I'm always broke for birthday, anyway because of fake ass SSI & Social Security that I never wanted in the first place. I don't really get any birthday wishes or anyone to give me any gifts or presents. I'm used to it, after all these years. I'm not expecting it anymore. If I do get anything, then thanks in advance. I just rely on birthday freebies, not out of celebrating, but because they're free meals & stuff, since I'm broke, poor & homeless. Just like, if I don't have anything to eat for Thanksgiving, I have no choice but to have their fake shameful dinner because that's what everyone has to offer. I didn't realize that when we celebrate Thanksgiving, we celebrate the murder of Native Americans, & I'm mixed with so much Native American!
I wish I could go visit my hometown New Orleans for birthday this year, but I won't be able to. I went broke within 6 days because I ran out of necessities & then had to replace everything. It's 1 of those months. Ran out of & had to get more soap, batteries, trash bags, bladder pads (which I also use as sanitary pads) & more. I went back to taking my supplements again. I don't need to list everything. My storage bill cost went up I think $23 more. I had no choice but to get a haircut. It was too damaged. I feel really bad, but I had no choice. I didn't want to be struggling with trying to comb damaged hair every day. The narcissistic online perps falsely accused me of blowing & mismanaging my money, spending it too quickly on things I "don't need". They don't know what they're talking about, & it's not their business. I'm trying slowly, but surely, to get back into my way of doing things before the situation with fake, retarded Tricia happened. I'm still trying to replace what I was forced to leave behind. Fall is coming soon, & I would need to get more pants, get another hoodie & a big coat. I'm not ready for summer to be over. I'm enjoying this hot/warm weather. It's August & getting cold already. Especially at night. It's strange.
Every birthday is always a RUINED disaster for me. I can't EVER count on it being a PERFECT, ideal day. Throughout the years, I would always get abuse, rudeness & disrespect whenever I would go eat out & get birthday freebies, such as IHOP, Denny's & more. Last time, Red Robin was rude towards me last year & copied off of Seville Quarter with giving me an undercooked burger, when I would specify "well done/fully cooked". Then, the perps would give me undercooked burgers everywhere I went. I don't eat mainstream fast food anymore. The narcissistic gang stalkers would always ruin my birthday SO badly that I would come home on my knees, crying, having an emotional meltdown. It was REALLY bad, especially when I was living in Los Angeles. I was wondering why everyone would be so cruel & rude for no reason. Gang Stalking. They will go out of their way to FUCK UP your birthday on purpose!
My birthday didn't turn out good last year, either. I tried to make it special. It got destroyed. It was SO lonely. I hardly got any birthday wishes or donations/gifts/money, etc. because my twin sister had turned so many TI's against me. I had MUCH more respect & love in 2020 before she came on the scene. I was forced to quit the Seville Quarter job a week before our birthday, & I already set up a hotel room on the beach, before I foresaw myself quitting abruptly. I ended up menstruating. It was raining all day. My favorite beach restaurant wasn't open. I went somewhere else, & I had to deal with HEAVY gang stalking & perps trying to deliberately splash me with their cars. I had to deal with a narcissistic rude hotel midget perp. I tried to make everything special with publishing a birthday special edition collection of my short stories. Amazon Kindle DELIBERATELY delayed everything until the 26th, when I uploaded it on the morning of the 24th. Usually, it would upload & publish within less than 24 hours. They didn't publish it until the 26. Then, Star Bricker gave a false bad review on the ebook, as soon as it was published. She INTENTIONALLY wanted to be SO abusive & insulting that I almost cried.
You don't like my writing, stop stalking, harassing & insulting, trying to control me. Don't review or comment of you don't like what I write. But you're NOT going to stop me! I WILL put your government name with exposing EVERYTHING you do, because you're a sick, obsessed psychopath & Satanic criminal! Stop trying to copy off of fake crusty Monique with talking about me putting your "government" or "legal name" out in the open. Your name wouldn't need to be mentioned if you didn't abuse or cyber stalk me! You do the crime, you do the time! Even if it's eternally doing time in hell for all your sins! This is for ALL of you Satanic perps!
In 2015 & 2018, I was forced against my will, to be punished & abused with bed bugs & caught them ON my birthday! They did that shit on purpose! In 2016, a fake "nice" perp ruined my day by throwing up devil horns hand signs while talking to me. + whatever restaurants I went to that day in Greenville, SC to get birthday freebies, I got treated with rudeness & abuse.
In 2019, my twin sister picked an argument with me for an excuse to justify not talking to me & being mad at me. I was homeless on the streets, asking & begging for NOTHING! Had NO fundraiser, CashApp, PayPal, GoFundMe, Venmo or nothing. I was working at the fake, dirty YMCA downtown. Even was at work, crying my ass off on our birthday. I got set up & wrongfully fired & banned 2 days later. On our birthday in 2019, I was forced to sleep on the streets. I had no hotel room.
I would be all night, going into detail, & I'm sleep deprived & tired. Just know that every year is a birthday disaster! I was even homeless in 2018. I caught bed bugs from the Salvation Army shelter & then went to Harrah's Casino. The day after our birthday was when I got wrongfully banned from Harrah's Casino in New Orleans downtown. A hardcore butch man dyke bus driver perp, whom I used to call "Trashy Hood Dykes" with the East Bank of Jefferson Parish bus system also was rude on my 35th birthday. I was shaken up & emotionally disturbed at how she treated me. 2020 & 2017 weren't good either. A perp tried to get me to sell out ON my birthday in 2020! He said, "We eat cake every day of the year. Come join us!" & he calls himself, "GStalker4Hire" or something like that. In 2017, I was in the emergency room at Ochsner Hospital on Jefferson Hwy. in Jefferson, LA. Part of New Orleans. They didn't care that it was my birthday, & I was treated like shit. I was hit with energy weapons so badly that I thought I was going to die, & I had to go to the ER. I had bloody diarrhea.
So, for 2022, I'm not expecting or looking forward to a flawless birthday. I know I won't receive any call from my twin sister or any other family members. Our birth certificate says our birthday is August 25th. Both of ours. I was born at 10:23 PM, & she was born at 10:36 PM. 13 minutes apart. Our ORIGINAL birth certificate, that the fake foster mom illegally has, says that we're IDENTICAL twins, but the biological family try to lie & say that we're fraternal. Well, how could they say that we even used to fight inside of the womb, then?
I'm also feeling conflicted because I heard about people saying that celebrating birthdays is narcissistic, pagan, Luciferian & Satanic, just like Christmas, Easter, etc. Having mixed feelings. I never get to celebrate, anyway! I hear people always talk about how the chief narc in your life loves to ruin the victim's birthday.
Have any of you Targeted Individuals or narcissistic abuse victims/survivors experienced abuse on your birthday? Let me know in the comments section.