Venting about not suffering hard enough

It's frustrating that people see the perps trying to destroy me, yet tell me stuff like, "I know some homeless people who don’t receive any payments at all. No SSI, no money for hotel rooms, no money for food, no monthly Youtube payments. I feel terrible for them. Some of the women have children." 

I bet those homeless women aren't being gang stalked, slandered & slow murdered! 

What about the other homeless people (whether real homeless or fake homeless) who get paid to target TI's? 

Despite that above, I'm still struggling. People say that homelessness is oddly more expensive than housing. 

Homelessness, jail/prison, institutionalization, & finally DEATH is the end goal that the gang stalkers have for us targets. I don't know why people push the false narrative that I have it MADE, as a "spoiled" homeless brat. How many times have people seen me suffer, being harassed, swatted & hit with weapons, while suffering out in the rain, cold, wrongfully permanently kicked out of & banned from hotels during hurricanes & blizzards? 

Why am I not suffering hard enough for everyone? Why do so many people try to act like as if other homeless people have it worse off than me? Like as if I'm entitled, ungrateful & undeserving? 

Someone in the TI community defended me & said, "This would not be happening at all if they didn't keep running you out of housing and jobs through #MKULTRA."

Sorry about the font change. & I'm SICK & TIRED of people trying to criminalize my survival & act like as if my fight for survival doesn't matter! $120 on average for YouTube payments & they just raised my Social Security check from $727/month up to $778. 

There's a questionnaire about how TI's are forced to have to spend more money, trying to survive, because we can't live normally, for various reasons! Let me go find that questionnaire.

Here's 3 of them. 

Targeted Individual Questionnaire/Survey

https://web.archive.org/web/20220228065558if_/https://www.citizensaht.org/_files/ugd/380942_29777a4bcdbb4303b4c89e81e81660b0.pdf

https://web.archive.org/web/20220228083746if_/https://www.citizensaht.org/_files/ugd/380942_38ac3ec01c0045d59d7064a5ab3a8a83.pdf?index=true

https://www.google.com/url?q=https://www.ohchr.org/Documents/Issues/Torture/Call/QuestionnairePsychologicalTorture.docx&source=gmail&ust=1764874570662000&usg=AOvVaw0OOB8KaWLLbM8U0s1zVi9M

People are always asking me questions about the TI program, yet refuse to do the research whenever I direct them to links in the description box or other websites. They false assume that I'm just lazy & don't wanna work. Some other TI's get support more support, especially if they're the popular fakes who sold out & are pretending! 

Thanks for letting me vent. 

Here's more.

People making me out to be entitled, ungrateful & spoiled. I'm talking about what the perps say, narcissistic abusers & also people who I thought were supportive subscribers. 

All the days I suffered, freezing on the streets. Getting yelled @ for falling asleep in IHOP, Starbucks, etc. trying to stay warm.

I have been scared, feeling afraid that I won't be able to survive this winter, because the perps have threatened people for helping. It's only a small amount of y'all on YouTube who help regularly. & if anyone is unable to, I completely understand. 

I'm angry every day that I'm being blocked from being independent & self-sufficient. I know that there are other TI's going through this. 

The perps keep trying to bully me into an ultimatum of selling out. I refuse. That's why I'm still homeless. They're keeping me forced homeless & wrongfully banned from everywhere. I think the perps even found out this hotel.

I'm tired of people comparing my suffering to others & also lack of achievement to others. Trying to criminalize my survival & existence. I don't even GET to eat 3 meals a day every day, much anymore! For me to Livestream for 8 hours, & it takes THAT LONG for me to get $10 for a meal to eat! 

I'm tired of people falsely accusing me of living in luxury & having it MADE as a homeless person, when it's only like 3 or 4 people helping, out of over 5,000 subscribers! Me recently being on the streets for 8 nights after the perps causing me forced diarrhea! 

I earn VERY LITTLE from my writings & YouTube. & the perps are always threatening to shut down all of the little bit of income that I get. Threatening to shut down my YouTube channels. They have illegally shut down so many TikTok accounts. 

Targeted homelessness is not the same as regular or general homelessness, so how can people say that other homeless have it worse, especially when some of them are gang stalking us targets?