I started this on Tuesday, 10/27/2026
Hello, everyone. If you ever subscribe to any YouTube channels of people from the "Narcissistic Abuse Victim" community, they have videos where they say that 1 of the biggest things to upset or trigger an entitled narcissist, is to tell them, "No!" This isn't the case, when someone is a targeted individual scapegoat, struggling to survive & being forced to suffer. On the flip side, narcissistic abuse survivors say, "What about when narcissists tell their victims, "NO!"?
When victims are told "NO!" by the narcissistic abuser, it isn't a way to set healthy boundaries. Instead, it's to exercise their fake delusional wannabe "power, rulership & authority" over the victims. Just like wrongfully punishing you with the silent treatment. & it gives the narcissistic abuser fake "bragging rights". They go & gossip/brag to their friends friends how they refused to allow you to do this or have that. (I can write a fiction short story about a scenario like this, too.) The narcissist's rejection or refusal is another way to cruelly punish you & sadistically make you suffer. Trying to play God.
Many narcissistic abuse sufferers also feel triggered when being told, "NO! & being treated like a child. Being forced to have to ask the narcissist for permission or approval about something. If you're a wife with a narc husband, it makes you feel like a child all over again, to be forced to ask him for permission to go to your own mother's birthday party. Or with church abuse & cult abuse, you being denied permission to see your own baby being born.
(Wow! I have to temporarily discontinue writing right now, because as of Wednesday 10/28/2026, they're vibrating my ENTIRE body with the Directed Energy Weapons, trying to get me to stop writing. I will come back later.)
This video right here is someone exposing how people are manipulated to refuse to help the targeted individual.
https://clapperapp.com/video/1Qx0vg9bdjYzONMr?is_invite=1&r=AokAX0bzPB&c=sh&m=mo
This video is like a parody of gang stalking handlers telling people to not help us targets.
https://clapperapp.com/video/jQ8oalB2J3xpBgr7?is_invite=1&r=AokAX0bzPB&c=sh&m=mo
Another parody video.
https://clapperapp.com/video/Z3Bbp2Zldl4p1GwR?is_invite=1&r=AokAX0bzPB&c=sh&m=mo
The online fake red triangle cult perps got my CashApp & also GoGetFunding wrongfully permanently taken down. & I think I'm going to have to do a separate post about the GoGetFunding incident.
Ever since they got my CashApp wrongfully taken away back in June, less people have been coming into my Livestreams & I'm getting little to no donations for survival, & the cult criminals tag potential new supporters to slander me & tell them to not donate to me. & they block the whole chat from supporters & normal people, while only illegally allowing their fake cult members to spam the chat with slanderous, abusive, distressing comments. Some of my supporters haven't been able to talk to me or come into my Livestreams since April, on the 2nd train trip. Now, I'll be lucky if I can get 1-2 online donations in a month. Prior to this, it was hard, but I used to be able to Livestream & get financial help almost every day. Even if it was just for something to eat.
I got something in advance, but on the ACTUAL day of me & my twin sister's birthday this year, I Livestreamed for almost 3 hours & got ZERO monetary donations that day! & I was forced to suffer on the streets with NO hotel help. Later on that night, they sent dangerous perps in a human trafficking white van, to try to intimidate me. This was while I was Livestreaming. 3 days later, the perps stole my backpack again! Talking about how they needed my birth certificate, so that fake Sticky can try to pretend that he's adopting me. That's the same day that Matthew Weider got tasered by cops.
So, I've been restricted from Livestreaming lately, which is hurting my earned income for survival. I say all the time, that if the perps would leave me alone & let me Livestream in peace, then I can earn more funds to survive, & that would be less donations for me to have to "beg" for. But they're trying to destroy, slander & murder me SO desperately! & ever since I contemplated to stop doing videos, the fake CIAHOLE perp has been harassing me via email & DARING me to Livestream every night. & they use the fake Mark Russell perp to trigger, antagonize & provoke me to say things out of my character, because they trigger my Tourette's ON PURPOSE! & they trigger me to get upset, just to justify illegally swatting me with the police.
That's why I have to be careful. They're trying to set it up for me to be tasered on Livestream, just like what happened to Matthew. My perp twin sister said that she's "wishing on a star", for the same thing to happen to me. I heard that it's a humiliation ritual, & also another way to try to cause trauma. Also, to try to get the cops to murder me, & the perps not feeling like they have to be held accountable. Blood sacrifice ritual. Also, after 20 minutes of Livestreaming, I end up having to quit, because I end up feeling painful pressure on my heart, & sometimes my head. I think they cause me distress & raise my blood pressure. Making me feel like blood vessels in my brain are going to explode.
Because of all of this, I've been forced to have to resort to "panhandling" on the streets again. It's HARD! I don't want to be forced to have to live like this for the rest of my life! 😠- & online gang stalkers keep trying to give me fake satanic sellout "ultimatums". Many targets say that the freemason handlers tell people out in society to not support or help us. Many people believe the lies, false rumors & smear campaigns perpetrated against us. Even so-called "Christian" TI's believing lies & betraying fellow TI's. That's why I freak out, panic & get upset when I get judged for asking for help. Wrongfully punished for no reason. Wrongfully blacklisted from employment & banned from seemingly EVERYWHERE!
Of all the street panhandling that I was forced to have to do, when I was living in Pensacola, FL, I think I can recall only 2 people telling me flat out "NO!". Ever since coming back to New Orleans in October 2023, I experience people being even meaner & more hostile/vicious. They either tell me, "NO!", brickwall me, run away from me, ignore me, play psych games (reverse psychology) & mock me, or lie, saying that they don't have it. Every once in a while, they'll feel guilty & then come back & help me out. Mrs. Tanya from the TI community asked me, "Are you sure that people treating you this way aren't perps?" I think they are. Either perps, narcissistic abusers or a combination of both. Sometimes, they will show themselves. They judge me & treat me like they think I DESERVE to be punished. That CONSTANT reminder that I'm a horrible person who deserves to be punished! They want to sadistically & narcissistically punish me.
But God has been sending people to take care of me & help me out a little.
People falsely accuse me of being a lazy, unproductive beggar, when I'm a self-published author, blogger & content creator. They maliciously block me from surviving & earning an honest living. They would prefer me to prostitute. I heard that perps get paid more, via trafficking, to keep us forced poor.
Please see the following blog posts below.
Panhandling As A Homeless Targeted Individual
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2022/04/panhandling-as-homeless-targeted.html?m=1
Begging Being Frowned Upon
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2022/03/begging-being-frowned-upon.html?m=1
02 27 2020 Blog #24: Homeless Targeted Individuals Panhandling
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2021/12/02-27-2020-blog-24-homeless-targeted.html?m=1
Why Targeted Homelessness Is Different
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2024/11/why-targeted-homelessness-is-different.html?m=1
Targeted Individuals & homelessness
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2021/12/targeted-individuals-homelessness.html?m=1
Oppression Of Poor & Homeless
https://gangstalkedcreoleauthor.blogspot.com/2022/09/oppression-of-poor-homeless.html?m=1
If you donate through PayPal, please send it under "personal/friends & family", since "goods & services" is for buying & selling (businesses). The P/F&F is for donations & personal.
#TargetedIndividual #GangStalking #WritingCommunity #Christians #Homeless
http://paypal.me/John146WTL
www.venmo.com/Candy-Grandpre
10/28/2026